Back on the Wagon :)

Story from today...

First some background...

For the greater part of the past year I have been losing weight on the Slim 4 Life plan. I had lost 70 pounds by November but then we had another miscarriage and I just gave up. Holidays were around the corner etc. and quite frankly I was tired of fighting. So, I have basically eaten what I want for the last 3 months and have gained approximately 25 pounds back.

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The Slim 4 Life plan requires that you eat a large amount of protein and the real stuff - not lunch meat :) I am not a big fan of cooking meat so for most of last year I went to Chic Fil A for lunch and ordered 2 chargrilled chicken filets and a large unsweet tea. Ever since November - I continued to go to Chic-Fil-A but I would order a spicy cool wrap and a brownie instead.

So on to the story...

I decide today that I am going to just order my old usual - I bring lettuce from home to make a salad. I pull up to the window and the manager was passing out food (to be honest, he isn't my favorite food passer outer as he called me a cell phone abuser once because I am usually on my phone going through the drive through). So, I wasn't happy to see him and decided I should start praying for him. Good thing...

The second I pulled up to the window I smiled sweetly and said "hi, how are you today?" He gave me one look and said "now THIS is YOUR ORDER. Good to see you back on the wagon."

Really - you didn't just say that, did you?? Good thing I was already praying for him :) Otherwise, not sure how I would have handled that. Instead, I just smiled and said yes and thanked him for the accountability...And started laughing as I drove off.

My pride is ALL kinds of torn up right now. One...it is slightly humiliating that I go to Chic-Fil-A that often anyway. Two...not only do they know my "usual" now, they know my "usual" from 3 months ago. Three...I just got called out for falling off the wagon. Four...I was just inspired to share this with all of you :)

So...the Lord set me up today - with accountability at Chic-Fil-A (smile). Even though I still can't believe the nerve of that guy...I am grateful to the Lord for this...I have been drowning in my sin again. In His kindness and mercy he used an apparently "not total stranger" to lead me to repentance...I hope. Please pray that God would keep me "back on the wagon."

Romans 2:4 (English Standard Version)

⁴Or do you presume on the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentance?

This is pretty intense - but worth a viewing

Sermon Jam - Matt Chandler

Matt addresses sin and God's good response to it. And...most importantly...His MERCY through JESUS available to all of us.

A Christmas Challenge!

The last couple of weeks have been difficult around our house and tension has been running high. To say the least, we have all been on edge. Impatience, arguing, yelling...you name it, we are guilty.

As we we sat down to breakfast, (listening to the seemingly endless bickering of my children), the words "outdo one another in love" popped into my head. These words are similar to the scripture found in Romans 12:10...

Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor.

So...I came up with the Christmas Challenge. I proposed a "contest" to hopefully get our family into the giving spirit (and maybe improve the atmosphere in our house). From now until Christmas we have all agreed to try to beat each other at outdoing the others in love. To start, we have committed to writing down 5 ideas specific for each family member. I'd like to think of these ideas as giving gifts...

Some examples from today...

1. Robert sent me a text message telling me how excited he is to see God working in my life and that he loves me.
2. Braden & I wanted something different for dinner than Joshua & Robert. Braden and I teamed up to "outdo" them by making what they wanted.

Should be interesting...

Also, quick funny story. On the way to school this morning, I read the scripture above and then kept reading. We ended up on Romans 2:20

...If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head.

Robert and I then told the boys about the importance of doing good to your enemies/loving them etc. Anyway...a couple of minutes later, Robert said something nice to me...can't remember what...

But, from the back of the van Braden yells..."MOM! your head's on fire because of the coals!"

Almost got the application...although, I hope Robert and I aren't enemies :)

Finally...sidenote about that verse. I always thought heaping coals on your enemy's head meant that it makes them feel bad by being nice to them (y'know, the old kill em with kindness routine)...slightly vengeful on my part and not theologically correct.

My husband corrected my thinking. Apparently in Jesus' time people walked around with hot coals in a bucket on their heads to keep warm. So...heaping coals on their heads was actually an act of kindness to lead them to repentance. Who knew?

Belated Halloween Pics

We spent Halloween with some friends from church...helped with a bounce house/candy/hot dogs for the neighborhood kids. Our friends have been hosting this Halloween party in their neighborhood as a church outreach for the last 3 years. It was cool to see how much the kids (and parents) enjoyed and appreciated it.

Unfortunately...we didn't take many pictures...but thought this one was fun. Braden is the clone trooper and Joshua is the alien cyborg (custom costume by Robert). I love how the light reflects off of Joshua's costume...looks like a laser :)

Enjoying this song today...

Artist: Kathryn Scott

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At The Foot Of The Cross
where Grace And Suffering Meet
you Have Shown Me Your Love
through The Judgment You Received

and You've Won My Heart
yes You've Won My Heart
now I Can

trade These Ashes In For Beauty
and Wear Forgiveness Like A Crown
coming To Kiss The Feet Of Mercy
i Lay Every Burden Down
at The Foot Of The Cross

at The Foot Of The Cross
where I Am Made Complete
you Have Given Me Life
through The Death You Bore For Me

i'm Laying Every Burden Down
i'm Laying Every Burden Down

Blog I'm really enjoying lately...

A Holy Experience

Awake, O Sleeper

Awake Church, Awake!

The weight of this world and the lost have been resting heavily on me lately. How would I change the way I live if I truly walked in the reality and heaviness of the gospel every day? I know heaviness seems like a strange term to describe the gospel...because the gospel is amazing...but not to the perishing. Seriously, we live in a world that is perishing before our eyes. I know that God is sovereign and it is His job to save, but has the church forgotten her role? We are each called into a heavenly purpose when Jesus saves us. Are we living in this?

And, just a quick sidenote in what the Lord has been teaching me lately...living in this reality has very little to do with "doing for Him" and very much to do with "being with Him." I mean, try it out :) have you tried to just sit with Him, just to "be" in His presence lately? I know for me, there is SO much opposition to this in my life. Busyness, family, cares of this world etc....and a very sinful desire on my part to just be about His work rather than about Him.

All of that said, my prayer for the church is that we would remember our first love and spend time with Him. That we would slow down and discipline ourselves (or be disciplined by Him - if that's what it takes) to sit and soak in His presence. How can we pour out His love and share His glorious grace if we are not basking in it ourselves?

Ephesisans 5:14
"Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead and Christ will shine on you."

Lord, I ask you to awaken your church. Pour out your Holy Spirit and revive us! Awaken us individually and collectively. Stir us in affection for You, worship for You, passion for You. Please help us to seek You and Your glory above all else. Lord, we confess that our hearts have become hardened. Sometimes it is so hard to see you. We are selfish and so wrapped up in ourselves most of the time. Please stir up our hearts and root out our selfish desires. Make us more like you. Give us a sense of urgency as we move closer to the day that you will return. Give us a holy desire for more of you. I beg you to give us your heart for the lost, for the poor and the needy. Fill us with you...to overflowing. Help us to seek you first and your kingdom. Help us to want you, not just what you can do for us. Lord do not abandon your church. Open our eyes to you and your beauty. Give us the desire to consecrate ourselves to you and only you. Lord we love and praise you! I ask all of this in Jesus' name! Amen